little bits...

i was really looking forward to first thursday tonight (artsy stuff in portland)... even though i hadn't found anyone to go with me, i was still planning on going to portland and being, in the midst of galleries, etc... there's a show called avant grande tonight, featuring art of local starbucks employees... i feel like it's going to be a dressy event - and i don't think my outfit from work is going to be suitable... i wanted to go home and change clothes... and i guess i have time... i was just looking forward to having some down time before driving home (north) and then back to portland (south) for the evening...

so at this point, i've decided not to go, even though i think it would be fun... i haven't eaten dinner and don't really need to spend money, etc... it'd be a headache to go at this point, which is kind of frustrating, because i stayed late at work to get a project done - i didn't have to stay, but i chose to, which pretty much meant that i chose not to go to first thursday and the avant grande show... the sacrifices we make for work - whatever...

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enough of the pity party... on to a different story - my boss (cameron) doesn't award wittiest comment of the day like i do - but if he did, i think i would have one it... (he kind of indicated that... and i made a second comment that would have been runner-up... i told him that i only get 2 a week... they both just happened to fall on the same day...)

one of the ladies in my building is retiring... it's been the subject of many inner-office jokes lately... first, because we've sent out 3 different mailings of 1,400 invitations/announcements about the celebration event in april... and then she came into my office last week and asked if i'd generate another flyer for the event... to go out to the same 1,400 people... second, because, on everything it talks about monetary gifts... do we need more of a hint?

so, i was looking over the flyer with cameron and one of the secretaries... and we were pretty much making jokes about the whole thing... and then i say... (talking about the gifts associated with retirement) "i need to retire to get the gifts... either that or register like i'm getting married, but without all the side effects" - it probably wasn't that funny - but we all kind of laughed... and then i thought... wait... i think i need to blog about that...

marriage without all the negative side effects... is this what i'm really wishing for? i'm really wanting to not be alone - i would love to date, whether serious or not... and i want to get married - when it comes down to it, i don't want to be alone, honestly... but is what i'm really wishing for a marriage without the negative side effects? do i desire the good aspects of marriage but not the hard stuff and the bad aspects...

anyway - that's it... that's all i have for the day... it's way past time to go home... so that's what i'm going to do!!